Lightworker Gatekeeping Waterfalls, Fear Healing, and Shining My Inner Star through Jewelry

I just had a healing session while driving to a waterfall. I'm listening to episode 7 Fear Not - Shine the Light that you are from StarMess Kamelia. She talks about the power of fear to control us. In order to take back this power we need to:

-Feel fear when it comes. 

-Acknowledge it and invite it in

-Ask it the question 'what are you trying to tell me?'

So I did. I imagined myself in front of me, and I thought of all the times I've felt fear and started to collect them. Fear in the car with my kids making noise, (I was scared I wouldn't be able to drive safely because my Mom got in an accident once and I thought I was my fault for talking to her while she was driving). Fear of my parents judging me. I envisioned myself collecting all of these memories, I pictured myself grabbing them from the air, pulling them in and holding them close to me. I continued collecting:

I felt fear when I would embarrass myself in front of my brother. When my friends made fun of me. (I was scared and embarrassed when my friends told me there was a lollipop in my hair and they wanted to help get it out, as I tried to find it they circled me and tried to stick a lollipop in my hair.) So I've been scared of people claiming to be helping me, and actually trying to trick me. I was scared in gymnastics when friends would comment on my body and I've been scared of not being able to control what my body does. I felt fear of being judged by my coaches. I'm scared of being judged by my kids and my husband.

I've always been very drawn to bridges. I think this is because I'm a connector. I connect people to their dreams and to each other. I act as a bridge and I know how to navigate through the tunnels that run under them as well. 

 

Then I pictured opening a door inside myself and said 'ok let's shine a light on this room of fear'. It said 'fear' on the door and I imagined a light being shined on all the memories and people I'd just collected and are now in this room.

 

I then said 'what are you trying to tell me about my fear?' So I started thinking of exactly what I was scared of. I thought 'I am scared of being judged, of being miss-understood, of being put in roles I don't want. I'm scared of being hurt. I'm scared of hurting others feelings just by speaking the truth.'

 

At this point I started to feel the emotions well up inside me, I didn't like it, and I wanted to let it out but also didn't know how. I saw 111 and took it as an angel sign, and was reassured, so I kept going.

 

I thought I am scared if I say what I'm upset about and share my true self to those around me they won't believe me or will invalidate my feelings saying It's nothing to be upset about. I'm scared I won't get the attention I need if I show my true self. I'm scared my friends won't like me. I'm scared I will annoy people and be a nuisance.

 

I pictured a little girl in the past being a bother in the kitchen. Then I pictured Anne of Green Gables one of my favorites from my childhood.

 

(As a side note also during this 'session' and throughout my daily life, sometimes things and people have popped into my mind from the past and resonate with something I'm learning now, and it feels like they've been clues to remembering who I am.)

 

Back to fear. So then I kept thinking of what I was scared of during all of these memories. I was scared if I didn't frame my own emotions and fears in a way others understood I wouldn’t get the comfort, love and support I needed.

 

By now hot tears were running down my face. I thought 'yes, let it out'.

Like a waterfall cleanses the earth, our tears pouring out is natural and when we don't, we get clogged up with unfelt emotions.

Then I thought I felt scared to be alone. And this felt like the core of the fear. I am scared of being all alone, having no family or friends because they don't like me, or I'm annoying, or I bother them or hurt them, or because I'm so scared of them hurting me that I don't even want to be around them.

 

So I cried and thought 'yes that's the root of my fear. I am scared of being alone'.

 

Then I started to think reassuring thoughts as I started to feel doubt like I might head down an old spiral pattern.

 

Then I envisioned myself at the door and ushering everyone out kindly with my hand palm open as if to say you can go now, come on out. I stopped to hug some of them saying 'I know it wasn't about me, it was about your own fear and struggles, it's ok now.' And they all poured out. And I thought I don't need to hold them in this room anymore, they can go now.

 

It felt so amazing and important  I decided to pull over and write it all down to share with you. There was a closed street right as I decided to do this so I parked there.

Now I am thinking about how usually when I do healing childhood sessions I comfort myself in the past. I didn't do that this time. I'm thinking I might right now. Ok so I just tried with a memory where my friends made me be the guitar playing boy in a project we were doing and we were going to dress up as the characters. I am REALLY into feminine costumes etc so I DID NOT want to play the boy with a mustache and male clothes. So in picturing this scenario I tried to give myself the attention I wanted but I felt like it would be selfish or not fair play to ask someone else to be the boy, as I think no one wanted to be. Well really what I was thinking was it wouldn't make sense for the Mother to enforce the rule for me. So then I thought I could just say 'no, I'm not playing that character', and then a multitude of scenarios could have played out including one where if they pushed it, I would say ok I don't want to play here. I want to go home. And then I go home. As they weren't nice friends anyways! Lol This felt very liberating to envision!

 

This felt really good, like a mass healing of many past traumas with the root of a big emotional trigger: fear. I invite you to try your own version and/or I will be condensing this activity into guided steps for you to follow in an email flow. I plan to connect jewelry unboxing as a tool for exercises like this as well! Oh yes another thought I had today was how I could view my Grandma being into jewelry, and my other Grandma into sculpture as clues to who I am meant to be. I love thinking of my life as a game, and I was born with no memory of my mission, and I'm working to remember and figure out my path, and gifts I'm meant to collect, talents I'm meant to practice and Master, guides I'm meant to befriend and information/codes I need to discover the hidden treasure inside of myself, and then share with all of you and the world!

 

I started driving again and pulled over because I forgot a big part of this! When I was crying I was also thinking I’m scared of loosing my home, and I thought ‘I missed my home, I don’t want to be alone, I feel homesick’. This could be tied to my parents divorce, it could be tied to being a Starseed or both. But it felt very intense a fear of loosing my home, and being away from family. I pictured my galactic family hugging me and welcoming me home.

 

I thought of something else.

 

I am scared of people being jealous of me. My Mom would say ‘oh your eye lashes!' or 'oh your skin is so smooth, I wish I had young smooth skin.' She meant it as a compliment, but it sounded to me like I had something she wanted and I couldn't give it to her, so I felt sad, and wanted her to feel good about herself. 

 

Also my friends at gymnastics would say ‘if I had your legs!’ implying if they had my legs they could succeed. So I felt like I DO have my legs so I need to succeed at gymnastics, if I don’t I’m being ungrateful for my legs.

 

I developed this feeling of obligation. If I’m good at something I must pursue it and succeed.

Going through the layers of Fear and programming we've accumulated can be tough work. It is worth it.

I have also experienced many friends saying things like 'oh my you're so good at that, I hate you'. (I know it's a social phrase, but being highly sensitive it cuts to my core every time.) I also watched feeling hopeless as friendships collapsed because I was better at something my friend had been working at for a long time. This was very difficult to deal with as a child and young adult. 

 

I also have a fear of success. If I win, someone else doesn’t. I am taking their place. People tell me 'no you’re not, you earned it', yet I didn't see it that way. but success is based on others judgement. Sports, money, power it’s all based on others choosing you to rise above the others. It never seemed fair to me and I didn’t like seeing my friends and family secretly or vocal about their disappointment or jealousy because I have something they wanted more than me.

 

So I’ve been on this push and pull struggle of succeeding to get attention and love, while trying to not succeed or be too good that I take love and attention and status away from someone else. And/or add more pressure than I felt able to handle by climbing the ladder of success. 

It’s exhausting! I’m excited to leave this limiting belief behind. There is enough for everyone because everyone is fulling their own destiny, they’re own special mission. Like in book The Giver by Lois Lowry, everyone has their role. And also like the Giver, there’s probably some wrongs to be righted and it’s part of my mission to spread love and light so we can all figure out what truly lights us up and complete our life's purpose. And feel happy and fulfilled.

I'm at an Indian Restaurant Now Maurya India in Hamilton. There's an elephant on the wall, so I feel like my Grandmother is here with me rooting me on to follow my new path. I also saw many encouraging numbers on my drive: 1111, 1122, and other repeating numbers I don't remember maybe 2424. 

 

Feeling amazing from my walk at Webster’s Falls. I walked around sending love out of my fingers towards people and the water. I have this idea that the water will carry the energy coming from my heart to far places. I also envisioned love exploding out of my heart, kind of like in movies when there’s a blast, and the sound or wind shoots out in a circle from the blast. But not violent, more like when growth and light travel. Moana is a better example, when she puts the heart back in the fire monster and it transforms into the Earth Goddess, and the healing, growth spreads out all over the world, and she lays down to sleep.

This journey was inspired by my heart, and I listened to it because I watched this video (by Christina Lopes called 7 Powerful types of Lightworkers and their Missions) the night before and it gave me the courage to follow my hearts desire. I am a lightworker in the role of Gatekeeper, where I get the urge to go places (Like Stonehenge which I had a very strong urge to go to, and I went!) Just be being at these locations we bring a energy and can spread it to the world through these portals. This was my first time travelling somewhere with the intension to spread light and love energy. ✨😍💖

I saw this behind my eyes as I breathed touching the stones on the bridge and focused on channeling light and love energy through my hands into the stone and down the water, and out around me and beyond.

Speaking of which I’m very tired! I’m excited to eat and go home, put the kids to bed and share this with you all! 

I'm planning to share the early stages of my healing jewelry line soon. Stay tuned! 

Here's a preview: 

✨Comment or send me a message: How do you recharge your battery? I like alone time, travelling and healing my inner child. ❤😍

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Are You Ready to Become a Magical Girl?

Your Contract is complete, you are now a Magical Girl! 

WOW! This has been such a journey! Have you ever felt like you were battling, searching, scared and lost and didn't know if you could go on!? Me too! 

I'm so excited this first stage of this epic adventure is coming to an end and I would do it again in a heartbeat! The connections I've made to this amazing Madoka Community are like none other! 

PMMM fans are the sweetest, most caring, understanding and heartfelt people I've ever had the pleasure of working with! 

A huge thank you to the Madoka community on Reditt for helping me on the path to my inner light and highest path. 

My most treasured element of these is learning about client's personal battles and struggles and how the show Puella Magi Madoka Magica helped them work through some big demons in their lives. 

I'm discovering it may be my true calling to be a healer in this lifetime, and healing through jewelry and treasured objects suits me just fine! ❤

Ok now for the nitty gritties of this journey! 

I want to touch on how I came to know of PMMM. About 5 years ago a client asked me for a custom Madoka Runes Ring. I'd never heard of the show, and I gladly made the ring for them, made a friend, and sent them their ring. 

Then about a year later another client asked me for the same ring, with their own name in runes and their own gem color. I made it again and formed another lovely relationship. Well I finally caught on after the 3rd fan asked for the same ring. I posted that one in my shop and the orders started pouring in! 

Fun fact I was inspired by the design on the gun for the frame on the cards. 😍

Once I discovered the show I was fascinated with the premise, which the fans were more than eager to share with me! It's about Magical Girls who become as such by signing a contract with a white rabbit names Kyubey. In exchange for becoming a Magical Girl Kyubey grants them one wish. Hence the phrase 'what is the wish that will make your soul gem shine?' They then battle witches in what seems like an alternate universe, but I think it's 'our world' but not everyone can see the witches. But if someone is sick, that might be a witch. The Magic Girls souls are housed in the all important Soul gems! 

The rings are 'travel' versions of the soul gem. The necklaces I make are smaller versions of the larger soul gems so fans can wear their souls round their neck!

I set out on the daunting journey of designing and making a 3D accurate soul gem with natural gemstones and a silver 'cage' to house them in. There would be many challenges to come!

First to decide what size to make it. What size eggs are available? What colors could we get? Did fans want briolette (faceted) or smooth? Natural gemstones, or resin? The Madoka community was invaluable answering these questions!

Once the details were solidified I got started with a new CAD designer because she was eager to take on such a challenging piece. At first she sent me lots of updates and I was excited. But then slowly months and months passed where she wouldn't respond, or would say soon...and I kept waiting...

Now it was 2021 at the time. SO MANY of us were struggling and still are from the last few years. So I was understanding. However as I'm learning, if someone doesn't do what their asked right away, it's not my job to wait, fix, or expect them to change. It's time to move on! SO finally after many months, I said thanks for your time, I'm hiring someone else! 

So the next CAD designer is an old friend of mine and I was thrilled to work with her again! She delivered designs quite quickly and we got our first model made! But then...my polisher sent me this image. Gulp, some of the eggs I ordered weren't the sizes advertised. We are actually still working out how to jump over this hurtle! It seems the mold has made the multiples shrink, which I was aware of, but the eggs are also too big. The new eggs I ordered solved one of these, but I'm still waiting to hear back from him if we need to cut a gem down, or make new 'cages' as he calls them. 

We ran into some issues where the metal couldn't get through the 'bottle neck' at the top. You can see where I've drawn a larger 'neck' under the star, to ensure the piece is strong and durable at it's 'weak spot' there under the star. 

Once we had the smaller design done, we moved onto the larger one! We were simply going to enlarge the first design, but realized the thickness wouldn't work out, so we started from scratch...again...lol 

The necklace is also available in my shop! 

I studied the show, looked at existing replicas and talked to fans to get the size of the replica just right! I also sourced gem eggs to make the replica as accurate as possible!

I also looked at what size gem eggs are available in the most colors to ensure I can make them in fan's preffered color!

CAD designs are looking good!

After some more months of working, finally! It magically came to fruition! 

Aside from the fact that according to the show I'm a real life version of Kyubey an evil rabbit that tricks girls, boys and souls into becoming magical girls, housing their souls in gems and hiring them out to fight witches...I couldn't be happier! and I know my client Lydia is going to treasure this piece for years to come! She said 'I am so excited to display this on my shelf. I have a whole base and glass cloche ready for it.This replica has been more than worth the wait. I'm so proud to be the first to receive a gem and I'm so happy you u/Ricksonjewelry have been able to grant the wish to make my soul gem shine.'

And now it is my great honor to share these Magic Girl Life Size Replica's to you and the world in my shop! Live for the first time today! 

So...are you ready to become a magical girl? What is the wish that will make YOUR soul gem shine? 😜

Rickson (Aka a real life nice Kyubey. ;)

Happy Valentine's Day! Show yourself some love, because you ARE loved, worthy, and fabulous!

Salutations on this fine Feb. Day, Valentines Day! Today we're celebrating self love! No not that kind, the SELF CARE kind! Where we explore, grow, and deepen our understanding of ourselves, and show ourselves love, and what better way to do that then through a rich fantasy life, and buying ourselves gifts! Today I have a beautiful story of how Rainbow Scarbab did just that in the most fantastical, interesting way! 😜😍

She was tired of trying to fit in, now she belongs to herself...and her Tiefling Boy Rudolfo's wife Beldani!

K, allow me to explain! 

I woke up one day to see a client had tagged me in her video unboxing her DND ring she purchased from me online. We hadn't spoken before so I was both thrilled and curious to see why she was SO excited (though it's not uncommon for my clients to gush over the jewelry we create together, since both they and I are BIG feelers, we love to get excited and we are... well...nerds! 😜)

SO I watch her ADORABLE unboxing which literally had me in tears learning about her deeply fulfilling fantasy life which has had real world positive effects on her real life identity. (Ask me to explain more, she has a whole story I can share in the future.) Check it out below, she's a cosplayer and I LOVE her lipsincing vids on tiktok @edgypancake. 

This is word for word how she tells her story and it's priceless! 

'I just got something in the mailroom today that I am so excited about! Y'all may know that I have this dandy character named Rudolfo. That's him right there. My red tiefling boy and I want to say almost like 2 months ago I had a session where he got proposed to by a wonderful wonderful woman named Beldani and I'm so happy for them.' 

'But my DM put a picture of this beautiful ring in our D&D chat and I was like this is the ring that you're getting proposed to with, and me being the person that I was immediately went and reverse google image searched it, found it and I bought one!'

When I contacted her to ask if I could share her story she said 'I got it to bring it into my real life and to remind me of a campaign and character that greatly influenced my life.' I love this story! It shows the deep connection between our fantasy lives and our 'real' lives. How our inner light (often discovered first through fantasy) can be allowed to shine out into our real lives, through cosplay, art, and yes jewelry! A ring has the power to pull that inner light right out of us, so we can look at in in our hands! Thank you Rudolfo for sharing your story, and living it! Check out her epic cosplay as Rudolfo, and this beauty shot of her ring with her red dice she sent me! 😍

💖Comment: Do you have a fantastical Character that helped you learn more about yourself? Do you have an object that connect your fantasy with your reality? Comment below! I'd love to hear your stories.

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Thank you @Rainbow_Scarab (find her on IG, or @edgypancake on tiktok) For sharing your epic journey, your why, and your amazing character and baring your soul for us to enjoy! You're wonderful and I love that we met through your love of DND and my love of making jewelry. 😍

Greetings O Nerdy one! 

These are the voyages of  Rickson Sharkey: Master of Jewelry, Mom of 4, and a quirky unicorn, dragon and fantasy lover, tired of trying to fit in, excited to let my inner light shine! 😜 

I design magical jewelry for nerdy souls who wish to wave their magic wand and POOF! Their dream ring appears (with an extra love enchantment to forever connect them with their loved ones. 😍)

Join me on an epic journey behind the scenes of 3 very different proposals, yet all very passionate about their play time. 😍 

They might have been in their underwear, or dressed as an elf...when we designed these magical rings... We'll never know! What I do know is they proposed during an epic cosplay battle and sent me the photos to prove it! How I love being taken to 'strange new worlds' by my fellow nerdlingers! (Has this turned into a compliment yet? I sure hope so! ;)

Congratulations! You won the battle!

They went Paw to Paw and came out victorious! (Click the image to see more furry photos)

I know what this one's thinking: '2 questions when do I get my sword and can I chew on it?' 😂

Let's travel to our next Realm: DND

If you've got your DND night planned by not your engagement, you need a plan...or should I say campaign? 😘

If you're still reading you most likely love a challenge and know that life is way more fun when it's lived like a game, for example DND! Fortunate for you, our custom design 'campaign' involves a 3 realm adventure where you and your loved ones are the star characters and every element of your dream ring is mapped out! 

By the end you'll feel like you beat Ganondorf in Zelda (or the biggest boss in your favorite game! Tell me in the comments the hardest boss you've ever come up against! Once our journey is complete, you get to continue your storyline with your favorite character (your betrothed) connected by your new relic, enchanted with both your love for each other, and your love of the game. 

Next Dream World: Zelda!

Would you walk down the isle to Zelda? I know this couple would! They got the Storm Song from Zelda and had 'Make it Rain' engraved on the back. Talk about fitting! What tune would you get? I know Saria's Song is popular, but I'm thinking Great Fairy Fountain because it's embedded in my brain from watching my brother play till all hours! I'm not sure I'd walk down the isle, if I did I think I'd want a full blown fairy Zelda fantasy themed wedding! Would you have a themed wedding? 

This romantic Zelda fan had the most magical idea, to put Zelda's flute tune on my Custom Guitar pics! Not just the musical sheet notes, but the ZELDA notes! Brilliant! Why didn't I think of that? 🤔

Click the image to shop this pic in my store:

Time to make it rain! What song would you get? Send me DM with your tune choice. I just love carving these little symbols as the notes so I'm itching to create new tunes! 

Ok time to wrap it up and get back to my galaxy of fairy rings, star encrusted treasures and DND ring box shopping!

I'd love to hear from you! Tell me about your fantasy ring design for a custom design consultation. Comment your biggest boss and what game it's from. Or if you'd have a themed wedding. Or what Zelda tune you'd get!

I so enjoyed sharing today! Keep exploring the stars in this beautiful life we get to live!

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Local Interview

I was just interviewed for our local Wightman TV and radio Station 88.7 The River and I couldn't be more thrilled! (Stay tuned it will be aired in June) Somer from the Minto Chamber of Commerce is such a gem to talk to, and I'm overwhelmed with the support from local clients! A local Mom commissioned a very special 3 ring set with her boys birthstones recently, and she told me she'd had her eye on it for a long time, but chose now to purchase it, to support local businesses. What a treasure client's like her are!

I can't thank the community enough for it's on going support.

After my interview I took the opportunity to take some new photos and videos of my studio for my shop. What a treat!